R.I.P.

G`MA

1930 - 2005

ALL i HAVE NOW...
ARE PiCTURES & MEMORiES...

YOU MADE & STiLL ARE MAKiNG A BiG DiFFERENCE iN MY LiFE- & NO MATTER WHERE YOU ARE, YOU WiLL ALWAYS BE iN MY HEART, i LOVE YOU-

.:: TEARS FALLiNG FROM MY EYES ::.

NO MORE CELL PHONE.. NO MORE TALKiNG.. NO MORE CHATTiNG.. NO MORE-
SO DONT CALL MEH.. & DONT EXPECT MEH TO BE ONLiNE OFTEN..
HAViNG A BiT OF A FATHER/ DAUGHTER PROBLEM- (AGAiN!!)

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BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probably really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him

DAMN.. DAT SUCKS-

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i HAVE PiNK BANGS!! HAHAHA..

i CUT MAi OWN BANGS!!

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10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't" notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

DAMN.. DAT SUX~

NOT MUCH TODAY.. BEEN SO TiRED!! WOW.. i LOOK LiKE i DiED & CAME TO LiFE!! O_Ox YEA.. SCARiE.. CHAN!! GO TO SLEEP EARLY!! NO MORE WAiTiNG FOR MEH!! HAHAHA U LOSERFACE!! <3 WELL HAD NO TESTiNG TODAY.. SO WE HAD LiKE TWO & A HALF HOURS OF FREE TiME.. iT WAS KOO.. DiDNT DO MUCH.. BUT BETTER DEN TESTiNG RiTE?? HAHAHA.. F'SHO.. WATCHED PPL PLAY FOOTBALL.. SOCCER.. & JUST TALKED MOSTLY TO CHAN.. CUZ EVERYONE ELSE DiD SUMTHiNG.. DEN i OWNED CHAN & BRiAN iN DA ABC GAME!! MUAHAHA.. iM NOT DONE WiT YOU GUYS YET.. HAHA.. DEN WENT TO EVEN DAY CLASSES.. BLAH BLAH BLAH.. HEADED TO HOOVER.. HAD NO PRACTiCE.. THANK GOD.. CUZ i THiNK i WOULD OF JUST PASSED OUT ON THE GYM FLOOR.. HAHAHA.. SO JUST WAiTED FOR DA BELL TO RiNG.. AFTER SKOO.. WENT TO COLDSTONES & CHiLLED WiT GRACE, MiCHELLE, MiN, YUNA, & JULiE.. iT DiDNT TURN OUT AS i THOUGHT iT WOULD HAVE.. SORRiE MiN.. HAD A LiTTO BiT OF DiFFiCULTY.. & SORRiE UR LAST WEEK iSNT AS GREAT i WE EXPECTED.. *SiGH*.. WELL SORRiE iF WE SED ANYTHiNG WRONG.. U KNO WAT iM TALKiNG BOUT.. BUT HEY.. U HAVE TO ADMiT.. WE WERE RiTE AT SUM POiNTS.. & UR RiTE WE HAVE DiFFERENT OPiNiONS.. SO YEA.. i'LL MiSS YOU SO MUCH.. HOPE THiNGS GO WELL WiT YOU iN BURBANK.. BETTER NOT FORGET BOUT MEH!! HAHAHA.. WELL YEA.. DAT WAS PRETTiE MUCH MAi DAY.. iT WAS BLAH.. -.-x

FALLiNG FOR YOU.. <3

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CHAN GOT JACKED!!

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?